Current mood:	frustrated and stuff
Current music:	Heaven's A Lie- Lacuna Coil

a copy and a note
so i posted in my myspace blog... and felt the need to share it

so i'm looking for a new job... just don't tell my boss...

seems that i've been working for the sort of business that has abso-fucking-lutely(thanks scott) no sense of loyalty or respect for its employees.  the new girl thinks she's the best thing that ever happened to the world of veterinary medicine... even going so far as to actually question the education and ability of one very good doctor.  She's the type that likes to convince people she's the only working, and that if it wasn't for her the place would fall to shit... she's been working with us for 3 weeks....but 2yrs ago was previously employed at the clinic.... so yesterday i find out that they've taken the responsibilities of the most senior employee... who has been with the clinic going on 7 years... and given half of them to this new girl... its like what the fuck!!!   she's the type of employee that doesn't even feel bad at the end of a long day of back-stabbing... she is out to get the rest of us... and i'm not going to be gotten... i'm normally a very non-confrontational kiddo... but if this lady doesn't lay off... she's gonna find out just how much i dislike her... b/c i'll fucking tell her to her face... she needs to be told that she is a bitch and no one likes her... not that it would affect her in any way... she still needs to know.  I don't really have much loyalty to this clinic... b/c there are lots of things that i feel they do wrong... but i still show up for work everyday and do as good a job as i can... when someone  comes in and starts to tell the owner that she's doing all the work... and no one else is... well it might be mean... or even rash... but  i'd like to quit so she CAN do all the work herself.... ahhhhhh

so i'm either going to quit entirely as soon as i find a new job... or just get a second job... and work part time at the clinic til i leave for school... but i swear if she says one more snotty ass thing to me about my fellow employees, or how she's doing everything... i'll fucking jam a patient chart down her fucking esophagus...

that said... everyone have a nice day now ya hear :)

in other business... i broke up with the nice guy... he was nice... but... it wasn't enough... i don't know what i wanted... possibly i just don't want to belong to anyone.... or maybe just not to him.... he wasn't a redhead afterall... j/k (sortof)... so christmas is comming up and i'm dreading it... the more i think about it the more depressed i get... Paul dumped me last christmas, and even though we got back together before new years.. it was really the end our relationship... and things just weren't the same from then on til i moved .... and the various christmas memories i have from my short marriage to josh are also less than happy... b/c they were all with his family who liked to suck the joy out of any and all family events... alas....soon it'll be over and it'll be 2006 and i'll be closer to college station and my life.  

and if you have the chance to live out one of your fantasies... do it... you don't get many chances to do things like that in this life.

kisses dolls and kiddos...

:)